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[Jun. 21st, 2008|11:22 pm] |
So today has been an overrall good day for me.
Im so glad I have my friends right now, or I wouldnt be so happy.
Im so sick of worrying what other people think of me, its getting OLDDDD.
I am content with my life and things are starting to actually get better.
I can't live in the past or the future.
All things happen for a reason, Im going to live life as it goes.
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[Jun. 13th, 2008|10:47 pm] |
I thought that today would be a very depressing day for me, but honestly I just dont care anymore.
im just really happy right now, i finally found someone worth it.
im so over you. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2008|01:33 am] |
im finally letting it go.
things have been way too good to ruin over these stupid thoughts.
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[May. 19th, 2008|09:37 pm] |
So I havent written in a while...
I have been staying at alicias house for the past couple months and I dont know what Id do without her. That girl is my bestfriend and if it wasnt for her id probably be dead. Things have been really hard for me, im trying with everything ive got to get over this god damn girl. She still means alot to me, but Im doing much better now. I have finally realized that she was the one that fucked up and theres nothing I can do to change that. I deserve so much better than someone who is going to cheat on me and lie about it. All I ever did was stick by her, and give her everything she wanted. I gave up so many things for her, now im left with nothing and shes all happy with that stupid bitch.
There are girls who have interest in me but im not ready for another relationship just yet, I dont know how Im ever going to be able to trust anyone ever again.
I just need my friends right now, and it sucks that most of them have left me too. |
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[Mar. 18th, 2008|10:48 pm] |
So I havent written in a while because my life has gone to complete shit. Shelley broke my heart so bad, I still love her with everything I have.
I dont know what to do with myself, I dont feel like a person anymore without her.
I wanted to spend the rest of my life with that girl, but she threw it out the window. I just cant believe that im not good enough for her and I never will be.
I am nothing. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2007|04:11 pm] |
fuck you, you stupid bitch.
you know who you are. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2007|09:13 pm] |
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Im a bad friend, and I should be shot. |
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[May. 30th, 2007|06:44 am] |
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TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY! |
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[Mar. 28th, 2007|08:48 am] |
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I have a kidney infection, so much pain.. maybe I'll die. |
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[Dec. 31st, 2006|12:35 pm] |
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I feel so empty.
I hate being alone.
When will I find someone that will actually love me? |
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[Dec. 25th, 2006|10:24 pm] |
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Today is Christmas, but I cant help to feel so unhappy. My family is so cheerful and when I watch them I feel like Im not even related. I am so miserable and I try really hard to make myself happy but nothing helps. Sometimes I feel so alone and I ponder the meaning of my life. I know I dont have a bad life, people have it so much worse than me. I dont tell anyone how I feel and I think that is part of my problem, I keep everything in so it just builds up. I just have no trust for anyone, its really difficult for me to open to my friends. I have this vision that they are going to judge everything I have to say, or even judge my feelings. Is that even possible? My anxiety is getting so bad, some days I just lay in my room all day and cry. I dont know what is wrong with me, oh im "medicated" but its just making me feel worse. There is so many things I sit and think about. Old friends and all my mistakes, there are many things I wish I could go back and change. I know I cant but it would be nice wouldnt it? I try to tell myself not to have regrets because you learn from your mistakes. That is just a bunch of bullshit. Every normal sane person I know has atleast one regret.
God I miss so many of you, I'm so sorry I've changed for the worse. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|05:22 pm] |
post anonymously
what you think of me.
whether or not you have a livejournal.
whether or not you know me well.
anyone who has read this please do it.
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|10:58 pm] |
New Livejournal.
Comment and Add.
&I'll add you back! |
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